Sigh.
That just says it all.
Baby boy still doesn't sleep through the night, even though he is 8.5 months old! I feel like I could do lots of the stuff I want to do if I could sleep from 11p-6a without interruption. That would be 7 hours of beautiful, wonderful, restorative sleep. Heck, I could go 10:30p-5:30a, meaning I have 30 minutes to exercise before having to get the baby. Wonderful! I hear of mom's getting up at 5:30 to exercise and wonder how they do it. Well, they do it by actually getting SLEEP!!
Or at work. There is so much I can do, I want to do, but my motivation is stymied. Why? SLEEP! I'm too tired to exert any brain energy onto well, anything. And forget having to get up out of my desk! i'm too tired. So I'm going to try to give up caffinee since that may help the baby sleep... but it will make me even MORE miserable.
Speaking of misery, I had my first AF last month. It was a doozy! It was like when I was a 13 year old all over again. I'll spare the details, but lets just say...ick. Well, CD1 was 3/16... now its CD36. And of course I POAS and it was a BFN. Not like I was expecting much different since, well, we haven't really taken much time to work on the baby making (again, I'M TIRED!) and I'm not really ready to be pg again so soon, since Danny is so much a baby still, and I'm SO TIRED. But, come ON! To not have a period... this is ridiculous! But I've had 40-45 day cycles before. Just a reminder that I'm still infertile.
Sigh.
